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Life of Cam girls

      It’s been 2 months I was first introduced to this world (Mayanagari ). I think I am addicted to it timewise & moneywise. Now I can rationalise my behaviour , can tell you why I am doing this , why I am wasting money & time ,but I won’t. That is futile.  We all do the same. We do stuff and to make us feel good we create very good reasoning why we are right. I am no different.

      I have seen this cam world closely for quite a while now and I think I can share some observation here.  First, if you are black or brown then your chances of success here are less than 5% I think.  Halle berry, Aishwarya Rai likes can ignore the last statement. Second, you might think this is easy money , well it is not. Now you can choose to work at home & avoid sharing money other than site. However most models in Europe work in Studio. Studio is place they create some sort of arrangement where cam models can interact with clients online. If Studio is good , you will get a room . If not , you have to share a room or space with other models. Don’t be shy to get naked in front of each other.

I have seen many girls as young as 18 work as a cam girl. They go to uni in the morning & work at Studio at night. I have made few friends here with whom I chat almost everyday. Models I meet are mostly from East Europe and their large number something has to do with less economical opportunities compare with West Europe. I am yet to see a German cam girl.  I have seen girls from Greece , Spain but baltic region countries are dominating this space.

If you ask me , is this a good profession to earn money ? I would say absolutely. If you have right mindset & most importantly right body , face then sure why not? However things do get messy as stress starting to get under your nerves.  I have seen many young girls chain smoking  , eating irregularly, working 15 hours non-stop . You can see it in their eyes. They get tired quickly. Jerks demanding for stand up , shake ass , open bra , press boobs , show ass in free chat. They have to reply every hi & hello .  Then in private it gets more stressful. blow Job, tit job , toys , role play and more stressful one when client wants to the girl to cum on camera. Imagine having orgam when you are sick .  These girls work even if they are not feeling well.

I have seen one girl cry on camera. I tried to console her but toward what end. This is ruthless profession.  Most models hate INDIA . Because motherfuckers from here goes there & make their job which already hard into hell by asking stupid questions, asking them for whatsapp number, abusing them in Hindi and what not.  It’s shame for this nation.

These models sometimes have some targets to achieve per week about shows. If they work for studio then boss decides their fate. He might ask for more revealing clothes in free chat to lure the clients in private shows( paid) . Or he can fire them. Overall , very stressful condition , pressure work  no wonder there models start making poor choices. They might never realise how cam models job turned into prostitution. When you start working under such condition , you stop seeing the difference between two. You see lines getting blur between those.

This is the sad part . I spoke with most of them . Their dreams are like us. They want normal life too. But life hits you with reality and everything changes.  You take one step & try to move forward . If that one step is wrong then whole journey could go haywire .

This is what I saw . This is what I see everyday. This is different world.  Models try to find money here. I try to find happiness here like many others. They are addicted too. I am addicted too…

Addicted to Cam girls ….

How could not I ?  Have you guys seen what they say in their profile? Have you guys seen how fresh they are ?  Have you guys seen what they do in private chat ? Have you guys seen how erotic they get ?  It BLOWS my freaking mind.

THE ONLY THING  I REGRET that I am not fucking RICH.  I didn’t know orgasm can be so much heavenly good.  I MUST get rich now which I will.

By the way I am 27 unmarried. I usually go with 18 years old girl. I have seen 55 years old guy enjoying the heaven there.  MONEY MONEY MONEY .

MONEY FUCKING CAN BUY YOU HAPPINESS. If someone tells you not then do me favor , slap that moron on his/her face.

Heaven exist , I know now and it is on camsite … one more thing only Caucasian & Europe .. I see 90% girls from there… which is great. I personally prefer only THEM. No Offence.

Latvia , Bulgaria , Ukraine, Russia….

There was this guy : tall , handsome , muscular in  my team.  He was really  an exception in terms of physical appearance compare normal Indian men like me.  Then there was a girl , beautiful , tall, perfect smile ; again an exception. We used to talk ABOUT her.  When this guy came into our team, he saw her & said ,” I want her”.  Few days after he was talking TO her.  He broke her existing relationship & become her BF at will.  Salute to you Sir !

There are two kinds of guys: Type 1:  Those who talk ABOUT girls, and Type 2: Those who talk TO girls.

I am TYPE1. I like girls but I only think about them. I talk about them. I write blog about them. BUT I never TALK TO them.  What a shame !

Thanks to Cam girls. Now I at least chat with them.  I don’t want to talk about money I have lost last 3 weeks. I want to talk about how happy I feel being on the site.  The only thing I regret is that I am not rich. What a shame !

Latvia : I didn’t even know about this country 3 weeks ago. Now I am thinking moving there permanently.  I saw so many angels from Latvia. I used to think heaven is an abstract idea. No way in hell.  Latvia is the heaven.

Bulgaria , Ukraine, Greece, Russia …  the list goes on.  I have never seen such beauty in my life.  I think I was born in wrong country. What a shame !

I already told I like caucasian girls.  They are exactly like I dream about.  Their eyes . Their smiles. Everything seems magical about them. You want to fall in love with them. You want to touch them. You want to look into their eyes. You want to hold their hands. You want to take the walk to remember. You want to make them happy. You want to die for their smile…hmmm

Right now , I am just waiting for them to come online. They take me into the world I always dream of .  My real life is shitty now. It is some sort of hell.  But with them , I escape from this into magic of heaven. They make me happy. I try to make them happy.

I am glad found them….

 

THE WOMANIZER !

A womanizer is a man who always seems to have a new girlfriend, and who has no hesitation about starting up a new relationship before he’s ended the last one. Usually, these relationships are sexual and don’t last long.

I am virgin of 27 years old. I announce here that I will not waste time chasing perfect serendipitous love rather I would be trying to become A WOMANIZER.  I realised the real love is not for virgin. Sex is for virgins.

I wasted 12 years of my sex life ! Holy CRAPPY FUCK !

So , no more love crap. I am going to recover those 12 years . Hell yeah ! My plan doesn’t start in here this third world crap. As soon as I land in states , I will start the game. Barney give me blessing ! I might as well meet that dude.

You might say but dude you are ugly also still virgin . I heard alright. Art of seduction is a skill that can be learned. And I am god damn fucking good at learning.  This is happening. I am happy with my new goal. It is going to be Legen…………wait for it ………

 

Cam girls : When fantasy becomes reality !!

Ever since I found out about masturbation, I think four years ago, I have been hooked up on it. Before that I was very much curious also in this very fundamental aspect of being human. There is nothing like SEX. Nothing. I enjoy every orgasm. The climax is always pleasurable.  FYI I have very high sex drive

As I never been in relationship or had courage to for prostitute , I am not aware real sex part. And that is the problem. You simply run out of fantasy. And trust me , when your internet fukcs up the right before the climax you want to kill  yourself in this country. You just have to start all over again . Pure wastage of time. This country is sucks !

Any way , I was aware of cam girls concept but never tried it before. I was worried about what others think. Now I don’t give FUCK to any one. If I want something in life or sex, I am going to do it. I don’t care about morality. Morality is for utopian world. Definitely doesn’t apply to third world crap that is me.

But it is kind of expensive, which is again slap for being poor. Think about being poor, being in a country where internet sucks & government bans porn site and being virgin. Next time you said your life in west is fucked up. Think about my situation. Not for gulite but for reference.

I like caucasian girls. Go ahead sue me. I don’t give a shit. I never watch porn other than caucasian girl in it. That is my taste. And I don’t care what people think. “You are brown , you only watch” DON’T TELL ME WHAT TO DO.   If you don’t like non-white man watching white-girl-porn then DO IT IN YOUR HOME. Okay ? Hypocrates !

Anyway , I asked two girls to strip naked for me . I requested actually. THEY DID IT . I don’t care if it was money or not. This is a big deal for me. No girl has strip naked for me. Both climaxes were excellent.  Who knew this could happen to me? That is how my fantasy become reality. They are super friendly. Again our reputation is bad.

I like cam girls. Much better than real girls. Real girls HAVE TONS OF DEMANDS .  Hello, I am not Brad Pitt. I were him I would not have cared either. I mean the expectations by the girls are so fucking insane.  “You are brown. You are ugly. Your penis size is 4 inch. You don’t have height. Your accent is not british. ” WHO CARES ???? Fuck your demands . Fuck your mentality !!!