Zero Expectation

I don’t remember the last time I wrote a blog here. It has been long time. I have been spending more time on camsites chasing happiness , working on my job and gym. I couldn’t spend any time here. I wasn’t motivated enough. One thing you should know about me is I don’t do anything unless I want to or I am forced.  So I am sorry to my followers that I showed my back to you.  Forgive me.

Coming back to the title of this blog. Once you have expectation and it doesn’t become true then you get hurt. That is how it is. It applies to everything in life. You expect sunny day but it fucking rains. Damn …your mood is gone . You expect promotion but manager thinks otherwise. There you go down. You get my point. This is not my innovation. In Bhagwat Gita , Lord Krishna says you become happy or sad when you have expectation. Once you remove it, you are free. They can’t touch you.

As you know I have been trying to move out India since 2013. It is not happening. I expected to happen sooner but it didn’t. Now I don’t care at all. Same with love life.  I am 28, still to get into relationship. It didn’t happen . Now I don’t care. Same with life. Many things are not working the way I want . Now I don’t care. It is what it is. Good or bad. Right or wrong. Happens or not.  I have no expectation from life or any one.

Reminds me of powerful quote :

No One Owes You Anything. No One.

That’s it . That is the message . That is the theme I am working on. Thanks for reading this. Comment if you want to say thing. Have nice day ahead.


I Dream and They Live

“Don’t compare yourself with others.” We hear this wisdom passed on to us everyday. “Appreciate what you have” “Don’t look into others’ plate” and all that shit. You heard me right SHIT.

You have brain . Like good brain. You can analyse what is wrong , what is right . You can decide what you want. So you have formalise your dreams, goals. Your ideal life. And then you CAN’t seems to get it. You are being DENIED because you are in QUEUE. Let’s face it what you want is what everyone want. So WAIT and WAIT. You know you are getting old. You know “Ideal” life is pretty useless if you go bald or you don’t have teeth. You are sick of this wait.

Now you are on LinkedIn/ FB, Instagram or whatever social fuck you prefer . And there you see what ? Your IDEAL life . Yes exactly you dreamed of. It’s there . It exists. It is possible. BUT BUT I mean REAL BUTTY BUT you are not living it. Someone else is milking it in front of your eyes. SLAM . Now you don’t even have a laptop.

In what way are you expect me to be CALM by seeing what-his-face living my DREAM life. That is like watching Unfaithful all over again. It boils my blood that my dreams are being eaten alive by another human being and I can’t do anything. I am DENIED. How fair is this ?  Everyday I push myself out of the bed through this HELL because I HOPE I will live my dream life. But then I find people living it IN FRONT of my eyes. That is just wrong . That is just horrible.  Why God just end this life & dreams along with it ?  This is so wrong. This is just betrayal. Don’t compare my foot.

What is the greatest thing about being a Hindu?

Source : Quora 

1) Believe in god! – you’re accepted – Aastik

2) Don’t believe in god! – You’re accepted – Nastik

3) You want to worship idols , please go ahead

4) You dont want to worship idols, please go a ahead.

5) You want to criticise something in our religion. Come forward. We are logical. You will be Hindu.

6) You want to accept as it is. Please go ahead with it.

7) You want to start your journey by reading bhagvad gita – Go ahead

8) You want to start your journey by reading Upanishads – Go ahead.

9) You want to start your journey by reading Purans – Go ahead.

10) You just don’t like reading. No problem. Go by Bhakti tradition . ( bhakti- devotion)

11) You don’t like idea of Bhakti! No problem, dude. Do your karma.

12) You want to enjoy life. Very good. Go ahead. No problem at all. Charvaka Philosophy

13) You want to abstain from all the enjoyment of life & find god. Wow! Be a Sadhu!

14) You don’t like the concept of God. You believe in Nature only. – Welcome.

vrukshavalli amha soyare” (Trees are our friends)

15) You believe in one god or supreme energy. Superb! Follow Advaita philosophy.

16) You want a Guru. Go ahead.

17) You don’t want a Guru. Go ahead.

18) You believe in Female energy. Welcome! Shaktiism form of Hinduism.

19) You believe every human is the same. Yeah! You’re awesome, come let’s celebrate Hinduism! “Vasudhaiva kutumbakam” (the world is a family)

20) You don’t have anything to do. Don’t worry. One more festival is coming!

21) You are a working person. Don’t have time for religion. Its okay. You will be a Hindu.

22) You like to go to temples. Please go ahead.

23) You don’t like to go to temples, no problem. You are still a Hindu!

24) You know that your religion is a way of life. With freedom.

25) You believe that everything have god in them. So you worship your mother, father, guru, tree, River, Prani-matra, Earth, Universe!

26) And If you don’t believe that everything have god in them – No problems. Respect your viewpoint.

27) “sarve sukhin santu” (May all live happy.) “Sarve bhavantu sukhinah” (May all llve happy) You represent this!

You’re free to choose, my dear Hindu!

Next Hitler or Next Gandhi : My choices.

“The most dangerous creation of any society is the man who has nothing to lose.” – James Baldwin

Today I came across this power quote & I realised why I am yet to follow footstep of Hitler. I still have something to lose.  That may not be the case of everyone on this planet. So, it shouldn’t be surprising to see the world filled with violence.

Hindu mythology precisely highlights the theme of “Kaliyug” (Modern world) . It is a battle within yourself: Good Vs Evil inside you. “Ramayan” was battle between two countries. “Mahabharata” was battle between two families. And this one is all about YOU vs YOU.

When I was furious with corruption in Passport office , I told myself if they destroy my life I will create a living hell on this planet. I didn’t. Because I had family to lose and even today, I have a lot to lose. But I wonder was that the case with Osama Bin Laden ? Did Hitler have anything to lose? Or did he give a shit of losing something? ISIS fighter blowing themselves did they anything worth living for?

So brace yourself violence, massacre, war, corruption, robbery, murder everything is here to stay.  Good vs Evil is the theme of Human being. Amish Tripathi so called “Hindu” writer who somehow chants “Inshallah” after every two sentences  rightly pointed out in his Shiva Trilogy books that “Anything in excess is bad. Too good is bad. Too bad is bad.” We must strike a balance between Good and Evil within us. I find that very difficult.

So at this point in my life , I can be Next Hitler or Next Gandhi totally depends on future. I can be God or Demon. I don’t know. In Hindu mythology one of Vishnu’s (CEO of all Gods) avatar  ParshuRam says, ” I was born as Ram (another avatar). But the situation forced to become ParshuRam. Parshu was his weapon. He become extremely violent when someone beheaded his father. ”  I hope it doesn’t come to this.