It’s been 2 months I was first introduced to this world (Mayanagari ). I think I am addicted to it timewise & moneywise. Now I can rationalise my behaviour , can tell you why I am doing this , why I am wasting money & time ,but I won’t. That is futile. We all do the same. We do stuff and to make us feel good we create very good reasoning why we are right. I am no different.
I have seen this cam world closely for quite a while now and I think I can share some observation here. First, if you are black or brown then your chances of success here are less than 5% I think. Halle berry, Aishwarya Rai likes can ignore the last statement. Second, you might think this is easy money , well it is not. Now you can choose to work at home & avoid sharing money other than site. However most models in Europe work in Studio. Studio is place they create some sort of arrangement where cam models can interact with clients online. If Studio is good , you will get a room . If not , you have to share a room or space with other models. Don’t be shy to get naked in front of each other.
I have seen many girls as young as 18 work as a cam girl. They go to uni in the morning & work at Studio at night. I have made few friends here with whom I chat almost everyday. Models I meet are mostly from East Europe and their large number something has to do with less economical opportunities compare with West Europe. I am yet to see a German cam girl. I have seen girls from Greece , Spain but baltic region countries are dominating this space.
If you ask me , is this a good profession to earn money ? I would say absolutely. If you have right mindset & most importantly right body , face then sure why not? However things do get messy as stress starting to get under your nerves. I have seen many young girls chain smoking , eating irregularly, working 15 hours non-stop . You can see it in their eyes. They get tired quickly. Jerks demanding for stand up , shake ass , open bra , press boobs , show ass in free chat. They have to reply every hi & hello . Then in private it gets more stressful. blow Job, tit job , toys , role play and more stressful one when client wants to the girl to cum on camera. Imagine having orgam when you are sick . These girls work even if they are not feeling well.
I have seen one girl cry on camera. I tried to console her but toward what end. This is ruthless profession. Most models hate INDIA . Because motherfuckers from here goes there & make their job which already hard into hell by asking stupid questions, asking them for whatsapp number, abusing them in Hindi and what not. It’s shame for this nation.
These models sometimes have some targets to achieve per week about shows. If they work for studio then boss decides their fate. He might ask for more revealing clothes in free chat to lure the clients in private shows( paid) . Or he can fire them. Overall , very stressful condition , pressure work no wonder there models start making poor choices. They might never realise how cam models job turned into prostitution. When you start working under such condition , you stop seeing the difference between two. You see lines getting blur between those.
This is the sad part . I spoke with most of them . Their dreams are like us. They want normal life too. But life hits you with reality and everything changes. You take one step & try to move forward . If that one step is wrong then whole journey could go haywire .
This is what I saw . This is what I see everyday. This is different world. Models try to find money here. I try to find happiness here like many others. They are addicted too. I am addicted too…
How could not I ? Have you guys seen what they say in their profile? Have you guys seen how fresh they are ? Have you guys seen what they do in private chat ? Have you guys seen how erotic they get ? It BLOWS my freaking mind.
THE ONLY THING I REGRET that I am not fucking RICH. I didn’t know orgasm can be so much heavenly good. I MUST get rich now which I will.
By the way I am 27 unmarried. I usually go with 18 years old girl. I have seen 55 years old guy enjoying the heaven there. MONEY MONEY MONEY .
MONEY FUCKING CAN BUY YOU HAPPINESS. If someone tells you not then do me favor , slap that moron on his/her face.
Heaven exist , I know now and it is on camsite … one more thing only Caucasian & Europe .. I see 90% girls from there… which is great. I personally prefer only THEM. No Offence.
“The only thing standing between you and your goal is the bullshit story you keep telling yourself as to why you can’t achieve it.”
― Jordan Belfort
There was this guy : tall , handsome , muscular in my team. He was really an exception in terms of physical appearance compare normal Indian men like me. Then there was a girl , beautiful , tall, perfect smile ; again an exception. We used to talk ABOUT her. When this guy came into our team, he saw her & said ,” I want her”. Few days after he was talking TO her. He broke her existing relationship & become her BF at will. Salute to you Sir !
There are two kinds of guys: Type 1: Those who talk ABOUT girls, and Type 2: Those who talk TO girls.
I am TYPE1. I like girls but I only think about them. I talk about them. I write blog about them. BUT I never TALK TO them. What a shame !
Thanks to Cam girls. Now I at least chat with them. I don’t want to talk about money I have lost last 3 weeks. I want to talk about how happy I feel being on the site. The only thing I regret is that I am not rich. What a shame !
Latvia : I didn’t even know about this country 3 weeks ago. Now I am thinking moving there permanently. I saw so many angels from Latvia. I used to think heaven is an abstract idea. No way in hell. Latvia is the heaven.
Bulgaria , Ukraine, Greece, Russia … the list goes on. I have never seen such beauty in my life. I think I was born in wrong country. What a shame !
I already told I like caucasian girls. They are exactly like I dream about. Their eyes . Their smiles. Everything seems magical about them. You want to fall in love with them. You want to touch them. You want to look into their eyes. You want to hold their hands. You want to take the walk to remember. You want to make them happy. You want to die for their smile…hmmm
Right now , I am just waiting for them to come online. They take me into the world I always dream of . My real life is shitty now. It is some sort of hell. But with them , I escape from this into magic of heaven. They make me happy. I try to make them happy.
I am glad found them….
Many people won’t believe me here in India as well as our western countries that I completed my engineering (Bachelor Degree) without laptop. Even I don’t. Somehow I won the gold medal from Electronics & Telecommunication department. Without laptop, which is hard to believe because nowadays even kindergarten kids are using it. The reason I had no laptop was our middle class background. I was on education loan. It covered tuition fee & hostel expenses. Laptop was luxury item. Only rich people could afford them. This was in 2006.
No laptop means no internet. If memory serves me right, my only presence on Internet was in the form of Orkut & Gmail. I used to think Facebook was white people thing. I was dead wrong. That means I was unaware of vast knowledge which resides in Internet. I was a fish in fishtank. I was naive young guy who had no idea about capabilities of Internet. However, I don’t myself because that is perk of being born in third world nation. You are always late as compared developed nation.
2010 I completed my graduation. Then after working 2 years in Software Industry, I decided to buy TV before Laptop. Can you believe it ? TV before Laptop ? Why ? I am glad you asked TV price= 8k and Laptop price = 30K . Oh yeah, money is honey. After using it for 1 year, I realised TV is waste of time. I need Laptop, not want but need. So , in 2013 I dared to buy a cheap Laptop & Data Connection. The best investment I ever made or only investment I ever made.
This post is coming to you courtesy the same laptop & same internet connection. They instantly became part of me. I found myself immersed on Internet. Finally the fish had arrived in sea. My internet presence grew exponentially. My mind started expanding. My mind was no longer third world entity , it had transcended into Universal Force. It saw no limit.My body did but it didn’t. It was liberating experience. I soon realised how small I was, how little I knew and how much I can learn.
Fast forward today, I spent more money on Internet than my food , again perks of living in third world nation. Did I tell you how much I love being in this country ?? Did I ? I dare you ask me . Any way , Laptop + Internet are my partners in success story that is being written. Without them I am just a fish ready to die. With them , I am shark inching to rule the world. Eager to leave my long lasting legacy on this planet. With them, life has a meaning. Without them , I am just decaying flesh. I am really grateful to all those people who invented Laptop & Internet. They have no idea what it means to people like me.
Let me just modify Leonardo DiCaprio words. “Let’s not take this moment granted. Let’s not take opportunities for granted. Let’s not take all the privileges like Laptop , Internet etc. for granted. Look around , appreciate what you inherited by just being born in right family at right time. See what you got by default without even asking , without even fighting for it. This applies to me as well. Let’s not take this life granted”